Damaged

Silence in solitude.
What have I made of myself?
What have I become?
I am ashamed, behind it all I am desperate.
I am afraid in every step that I might take.
I have finally seen this beast step into the light.
And I am fully disgusted at the very sight.
This is not who I am.
I am so much greater.
This is not who I am.
I am so much more.
I am just a broken down man.
Hoping to fix what I have ruined, the people I love and the love I killed.
I see this bridge in the distance.
That very first step might very well be the hardest thing in my life...
and I have to live like this every single day.
I have to live with the same face.
I have to hear the same name.
I have yet to come to terms.
I am damaged.
I have to live like this, broken, and desperate.
Behind it all I have yet to come to terms.
I am just a broken down man.
Hoping to fix what I have ruined, the people I love and the love I killed.
I am better than this.