Not to Be Here

if I thought that you could stand I wouldn't hold you like I do
if I thought that I could live my life with someone else than you
as you turned your head to listen to what I could never say
in a moment of regret I almost gave it all away

that I need you to love myself
that I need you to be strong
I'll do anything to make this disappear
I'll do anything not to be here

if I thought that I could stay I wouldn't leave you like I do
if I thought that in a million days just one we'd make it through
and every morning as you whisper I must never let you go
I would give away my life if only I could let you know

that I need you to love myself
that I need you to be strong
I'll do anything to make this disappear
I'll do anything not to be here

that I need you to love myself
that I need you to be strong
I'll do anything to make this disappear
I'll do anything not to be here