I have to block out thoughts of you

so I dont lose my head
they crawl in like a cockroach

leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape

To remind me I'm alone
Playing movies in my head

That make a p*o feel like home

There's a burning in my pride

A nervous bleeding in my brain
And ounce of pieces is all I want for you

Will you never call again

And will you never say that you loved me

Just to put it in my face
Will you never try to reach me

It is I that wanted space

Hate Me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you

I'm sober now for 3 whole months

It's one accomplishment that you helped me with
One thing that always tore us apart

Is the one that I won't touch again

In a sick way I want to thank you

For holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars with myself

You were trying to stop the fight

You never doubted my warped opinions

On things like suicide or hate
You made me compliment myself

When it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so f*cking far away

That I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart

To leave me behind

Hate Me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things
I didn't do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
I'm kicking shadows in the street for every mistake that I make
Like a baby boy I never was a man
Til I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand

And the I found I'm yelling make it go away
just make it stop and let it shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered "how can you do this to me?"

Hate Me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things
I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you