Dear Matthew, I like you a lot, I realize that you're
in a relationship with someone right now and I respect
that. I would like you to know that if you're ever single
in the future and you want to come visit me in California,
I would be open to spending time with you and finding out
how old you were when you wrote you first song.
Dear Jonathan, I liked you too much, I used to be attracted to boys who
would lie to me and think solely about themselves, and you were plenty
self destructive for my taste at the time, I used to say the more
tragic the better, the truth is whenever I think of the early 90's your
face comes up with a vengeance like it was yesterday.
Dear Terrance, I love you muchly, you've been nothing but open hearted
and emotionally available and supportive and nurturing and consummately
there for me, I kept drawing you in and pushing you away, I remember
how beautiful it was to fall asleep on you couch and cry in front of
you for the first time, you were the best platform from which to jump
beyond myself, what was wrong with me.
Dear Marcus, you rocked my world, you had a charismatic way about you
with the women and you got me seriously thinking about spirituality and
you wouldn't let me get away with kicking my own ass but I could never
really get relaxed and looked out for around you though and that
stopped us from going any further than we did and it's kinda too bad
because we could've had much more fun.
Dear Lou, we learned so much, I realize we won't be able to talk for
some time and I understand that as I do you the long distance thing was
the hardest and we did as well as we could. We were together during a
very tumultuous time in our lives I will always have your back and be
curious about you, about your career, your whereabouts.
